I was getting excited. I finally figured out exactly what I was going to do next. I had been sitting on my manuscript at a loss of what to do. It had seen so many rewrites and edits, I’m not even sure it works anymore. I’m ready to be done with it. But is it done? Is it ready? Is there still hope for it or should I move on? These questions nearly stinted my creative juices until last Sunday. My hubby and I were talking about the direction of my writing career and from there, I just knew what my next step would be. It’s been at the back of my mind for awhile, but now, I was going to do it. So I figured I’d better recheck everything and make sure it all lined up. And guess what I found? A big detour sign.
Argh. What has me chuckling? This isn’t the first time. So now, I’m back to square one. What to do with this manuscript…
When my husband and I were first married, we decided that since we weren’t promised tomorrow, we’d go ahead and start our family. Oh, how naïve we were. I wanted to be homemaker, stay at home and take care of the family, but for seven and half years we didn’t get pregnant. Big detour. I went off to a junior college and rediscovered my dream of writing. Whoohoo. I was figuring stuff out again. I became a little OCD and walked around with a color-coded weekly schedule. And then we got pregnant. Ha! Detour. Now, I’m living life balanced between reality and dreams. Isn’t it lovely? There are good days and not so good days, nevertheless I keep plugging on.
Several years ago, I had thought I knew exactly where I wanted to send my manuscript. You guessed it. Another detour. What’s with all the detours?Some of us might think these detours are doors closing on our dreams. Doubt whispers in our ears and we lose our vision, our compass. We begin questioning our sanity for pursuing our dreams in the first place. No matter where our thoughts take us, it’s what we choose to do that will determine whether the closed door is the end of a dream or simply a detour. It may be that we aren’t quite ready yet. And as we let go of our impatience and just be faithful in the little things, we will find the road we’ve traveled, detours and all, might lead to some place greater than we ever imagined. And when it does, we’ll be ready for it.
What say you? What kind of detours have you faced or are facing right now?
Here’s a great post on closed doors, Writing in the Dark by Author Morgan L. Busse.